I am not alone! Work seems more fun these few days. Today passed extremely quickly! Super shiok! Summore tomorrow the BITB will not be there! Even more shiok! Dammit, I think my mom hid the bak kua. So greedy! More likely to prevent me from eating all of it up. Stupid sore throat and block nose! Results on friday! So scary, so exciting! Finally we will get to know if 2 years of hard work has paid off, or rather, 2 years of work, or rather, 2 years of school, or rather, 2 years of enrollment with some ponning in between. But hey, I have done all the prerequsite things a VJ student has to do ok, I have stayed late in school almost everyday, stayed overnight, climbed to the roof, and went to the treehouse to study...

A woman gave me an ang pao while I was working at vivo on tuesday. She told me I reminded her of her son. Guess it helps to have a very generic face. On another note, a very snobbish caucasian chewed me out for telling him that we charge for water. He started by asking me if I was willing to jeopardise all the other items he ordered just for the sake of two glasses of water. I really wanted to say yes. "Of course I'm willing to do that. Whether you dine here or not, I still get paid the same. In fact, If you go somewhere else, I will have that less dishes to clear, that less cutlery to wipe and three less tables to clean. I know you are not happy with us charging for water. To tell you the truth I think that its one of the more retarded writs passed down by management. In fact, its so retarded that we have to put little signs on EVERY table just so that people will believe us. But do I look like a manager to you? Oh puh-leeze. I don't even get a share of the tips. What makes you think I value you as a customer?" But what I said instead was "I'm sorry sir, theres nothing I can do about it" because I really wanted to get out of this argument.

He also said something about how it is all like this in Singapore but I wasn't sure what it was. I guess he has really terrible luck in choosing restaurant. The last restaurant he went to was probably 'Saltwater' down at changi village. There lagi best! The only plain water they serve is evian and it costs 10 bucks per bottle. Hah! Here charge 50 cents already very good ok grumpy man? If you would like free water please make your way down to macdonalds which is less than 20 steps from here thank you!

Damn cute that guy! I think next time someone complains about the water thing I'm totally going to side with them. "Ya! I agree that its a very stupid and ridiculous practice! I don't know what is going on with them. Of course we shouldn't charge for plain water! But if you want it m'am I will have to inform you that we charge 50 cents for it. Yes such a bad practice." ~Cheesy smile~ Think that will throw them off?

Thoughts are like a strand of pork floss. Sometimes it looks really complicated and confusing but for every strand there is a beginning and an end and something linking both together. In that sense, there is a sort of order amidst all that confusion.

But that was not the point. I was just thinking about the strand of a single thought when that idea occurred to me. It must be the whole year of the pig thing. Sometimes when people tell me things, I see it as one end of the pork floss. However, I have no idea if the people have travelled the length of the pork floss to get there or just immediatedly went to that end.

For example take rich's recent post a couple days back. He was discussing the meaning of life and said that many of friends feel that the meaning of life is to search for true love. That is one end of the floss. How did you reach that end? For me, I tend to trace it to the other end which ends up as: The meaning of life is to find the most compatible set of genes and attempt to pass it to the next generation. And the thing is that it works both ways too, if someone told someone to find a nice way to tell everyone that the mission in life is to fuck and die, it is very likely that one would come up with the finding true love thing. When you strip away all the romance and peripherals that's it isn't it?

I am going to firmly stick to the topic.

So how did that friend come to that conclusion? Was it because he felt his primal needs and just put it as best he could into words without thinking twice about it? Or was it calculated and following a thread of pork floss thought? Both will get you the same words but with different meaning behind the words. One might show you the way to the answer, or at least the thread to the path on the way to the answer which might be neverending anyway.

Ok, the bak kua is too distracting. I give up!

Happy Lunar New year! Everything knows its spring!

The dog year is ending and the pig year will begin in about, oh, one hour and three minutes. These days were strangly fun. Firstly because I only had to work just over thirty hours this week, then what with valentines day and cny this week, exciting stuff. Well, on valentines' day I ended work at three. Which was a good thing because youknowwho was in some sort of foul mood that day as per norm. So very excited to get out I decided to try the new sunrise shake at coffee bean. My verdict? Stick to the honeydew ice blended.

Anyway I went to far east with the guys where we shopped around and talked crap, very normal stuff. I also finally tried the fried mars bar. Very nice, the way the chocolate flows out of the external shell is simply mouth watering, but its like an instant sore-throat waiting to happen. Lucky its served with a side of ice-cream. Then we ate at subway, where they made me order the damn sandwhiches and I think I screwed up everything. Lucky alven could still eat his sandwhich.

Then watched ghostrider. In a small cinema where the projector broke down halfway through the commercials. Oh puh-leeze, even princess has better quality, larger cinemas and more comfy chairs and its only 5 bucks on weekdays. Hmph! If you're gonna stick us in that god forsaken hell-hole at least have the decency to charge us less dammit...

After the movie the guys left for ks's house while I went and met up with some girls from S17, which was mostly my pw group. We seriously have the most united group ever. Anyway I tried the long island tea, not very nice, and a gin and tonic, excellent. I have a taste for those kind of drinks. And I somehow managed to get home before 1.

This my friends, is what uninspired blogging looks like.

On my off day, I woke up at 12pm. I ate ba chang for breakfast and slacked around before going to suntec for the NTU fare where I discovered that anything with the word engineering in it sucks. I am so turned off by environmental engineering now. Turns out all they do is clean up shit. So I'm back to being totally clueless about what I want to study. Anyway, Went to Ben 'n' Jerrys with xac and ah ma where they conned me into buying this bloody expensive 3 scoops of ice cream. Hey, at least the person who scooped for me was nice, though I was kinda jealous of her job coz she kept koping bites of ice cream. The ice cream was so delicious that we decided to go to carrefour to buy more. Ended up buying this 1.5 litre tub of rasin, nut chocolate ice cream that we can't finish. Then huili had to go for her yoga, and me and xac went to visit aileen at her workplace! Haha, seeing her so busy gave me a deep sense of schadenfreude and now I appreciate my job more and more. Visiting the bishan branch of SR just made me that bit better with my butter in my bitter batter. Then library, then home. The end.

Today is my off off off off off off off day!!! Whee!

It is all about the attitude baby. We each have our own reality and we posess the power to change it. By shaping our reality and creating our experiences, we can adapt to any shit and still feel happy about it. I love 11-9!

Today was kind of strange. My mood was swinging like crazy. When I was on the bus I was telling myself to change my attitude towards my job, even if its just a personal challange. I didn't want to spend the whole day sulking about like yesterday. So initially I was actually very cheerful and happy even though the management was about. I had planned to go about my job happily, then I would refill the sugar bowls in the evening and wipe them clean too. So everything was more or less alright, even though the crazy dragon was being, well, crazy. The first blow to my hard built happiness was when I just stepped into the bar area to EMPTY A DISH. Out of nowhere, she pops up and starts going, in that indirect shooting way I'm sure everyone has met before, about how there should always be one person on the floor at all time, and what if the management sees us like that, they will scould us and so on. Though there was 3 of us there, it was obviously directed at me. So anwyay, I wasn't quite as happy already but still continued about my work.

Then she struck again. Again, I was just innocently carrying a cup to the trolly when she ambushed me and went 'lik ah, how many times must I tell you to USE A TRAY?' What was I to do? I just agreed. I mean I know that I was supposed to use a tray when serving drinks but when clearing up as well? It might seem given in this frame, but all along, everyone else on the floor has been clearing cups without using the bloody tray. What made me so special? They said maybe she thought I was serving a drink? Yup, cups of wet ice with greenish scum on the side are one of our favourite drinks here. I'm sure the cool air smells so nice when chilled by the greenish scum. Hell, we even add a half eaten sour plum to make it worth 4.90.

Strangely enough, the thing that totally turned me off was later on. She was basically making life difficult for me and was telling me no to stand around even if there was really nothing to do. I could for example, bring all the cups back to wash at the sink at the bar while simultaneously manning the floor. Hey, when I manage to clone myself, I will let you know ok? And maybe I'll demand 10 bucks an hour too. But that was not it. The worst was when she asked me to wipe the sugar bowl. That was when I totlly lost it. Any trace of happiness inside me totally disappeared. Funny it took something so trivial to ruin my day but amen. I spent most of the rest of the day wiping everything else in sight. If in doubt, ask joshua.

As I was wiping everything in sight down I started questioning myself. What am I doing? I am wiping down everything in sight. Why am I doing it? I want to look busy. Why do you want to look busy? Because that bitch told me to. Why did you think of her as a bitch? Because she was mean to me. How was she mean to you? She was arrogant, and chided me for things which I'm sure I wasn't in the wrong. Why do you hate her for that? I feel that she looks down on me in that way, and that she is arrogant just because she is more experienced. Why do you think she acted as she did? Because management was around. What does this show about her? She is trying to impress the boss. What does this show about her? She herself has never been a supervisor before. What does it imply? She herself is nevous and uncertain, so she is overdoing everything. How does it relate to you? Its easiest to find fault with what I do and satisfy her need. Why? Because I am inexperienced and so am found wanting. What does this show about you? I still have alot to learn. Are you right in feeling pissed at her now? I am still mildly irritated at the way she treated me, but I can understand her reality, barely.

And the rest of the day wasn't so bad after all. After eating ice cream near the end of the day, I felt almost as happy as I was in the morning. I think ice cream really does wonders... Drank some white wine after work, with joshua. And I must say, wine should always be served chilled.

Somehow, when you write things down, it seems really trivial... But I'm still going to have a GREAT day tomorrow ;)

Screw work. Seriously. If I am going to have another 53 hour week I will seriously quit. Sorry, but I believe in having fun while I work. And I can't even get saturday off to go kayaking?

Anyway, surf 'n' sweat today! It feels very nice to go to these kind of events coz I feel like I know alot of people. Generally it will the CJ people who were from MSHS, the TJ people, OAC and basketball, some VJ people, though they seem too tao to go these kind of events hor? And surprisingly, one of the organizers was soon long's brother. Totally look alike. Then can still see all my secondary school seniors who are in University now. I think I will rather go to a local Uni. Fun fun fun!