Must... Resist... Cannot... Eat... New year goodies!

Thanks to the cross country on wednesday, I am having to control what I eat very strictly. That means no pineapple tarts, no bak kua, no nice food! The first day of new year went very well. I didn't eat a single new year goodie even though I visited many houses. Second day not so well. Broke down at my mom's eldest sis's house and ate many pineapple tarts and bak kuas. But managed to regain control and ate nothing after that. Hell, I even had that prosperity set from pizza hut, so I guess its very unhealthy. Tomorrow, well, actually today, I will have to eat very little.

The four days just flew by. Tomorrow will be the last day of the holiday! So fast! Then it will be cross country then back to boring old school. At least I have managed to keep abreast of the homework this time.

Today I actually gambled! Oh no! It has been imbibed into me time and time again when I was young that gambling was bad. My family never gambled during new year or other festive occasions. They also gave me the impression that gambling was like drugs. Totally taboo and forbidden. That gamblers will definitely become addicted and will end up stealing or in jail. Well, I guess its a sort of overprotectiveness on their part but gambling is not totally bad. I now view it as sort of a form of entertainment. I mean, you pay to watch movies, play games and what not. Gambling is just another sort of game. As long as the objective is to play the game or to win the game and not to earn money, I think gambling is nothing bad. The evils enter when you actually have the aim of earning money through gambline. Thats bad. Well, as far as I think.

Anyway, after saying so much about gambling, I won around 20 playing blackjack at roy's house. Most of it came when I got a gor leng as banker. Total ownage! I split the profit with my partner and got around 15 bucks.

Since its 2a.m I shall move away from worldy matters and focus on the divine. My image of heaven. I have always thought that heaven would be something like eternal glory or eternal peace. Then I considered carefully(all of five seconds), and wondered if eternal peace was something good. Personally, I would get bored of floating on clouds playing the thingy after maybe a year or so of it. Then I will have to look for something else to do. I would much rather watch the progression of mankind. To follow my descendents through their lives, to see what heights science has managed to achieve. In other words, I'd rather be a ghost haunting the earth. Not tormented by a terrible death type of haunt but just an unseen presence. Watching earth like some giant television show. If there is a god, maybe He can explain to me the meaning of life. Is it all an experiment to find out where He himself came from? To see if simple matter can turn back into energy, because thats what I think He is, seintent energy. Matter and energy is related. Matter can be converted into energy and vice versa. Perhaps this is what it is about. Creating us in his image to see if we would be able to break out of being matter and change back into energy. Maybe this will allow Him to discern where He came from. Just an experiment.

Well the fate of the universe is not in my hands and what I am talking about is just theoritical nonsense.

in other news, sometimes the same sign shows. I'm really really afraid that it is going to turn out like it did last time. And when I say afraid, I mean terrified, like as in scared shitless. Please don't make me go through it again! triwordophobia.

Yes! I finally broke 20 minutes. 19.59.59! think I still might be able to reduce it a little more, but too much preparation sucks. So I guess I will only do it for the cross country day. Anyway, tomorrow is a slack 6km, so no big deal. Wow, looking back, I realize that in secondary school we ran 4.8km once a year. Now its like every bloody day, and 6km sounds slack to me. Times have changed.

Wa, yvonne's next song sounds real tough to get good marks. Usually its the slow songs that guarantee higher marks. This sounds like a make or break song. She better do well, oh and dance well too! wahaha!

What a tireing week. Ran 4.8km on monday (20.34), then went to watch Campus Superstar, Supposed to have no training on tuesday, but the charity biking thing was on and so ended up busting my thighs and butt cycling the damn stationary cycle. The pain in my ass will haunt me for the rest of the week, in fact, I'm still feeling it now, so it totally spoiled the rest of the week for me. Gym on wednesday. Ran 2.4km before that because it looked like raining. Then thursday was the super duper killer day. Ran way more than 8km because I had to post a letter, plus catch up with the team. Then did lots of running stuff, all while feeling the damn pain in my butt. Really really horrible. I think I can't even touch the board now. Friday was gym again. Finally, a day without running. Today, 4.8km again, but was a slack run. Haiz. I think my butt is going to, like, fucking implode. No time to recover at all. Tomorrow rest, then training on manday again, as usual. Think will be running 2.4km. Sheesh.

All this running had better be worth it! I had better do well for cross country! I don't care if I end up like how I felt after 800m last time(puking) but I'm bloody going to be in top 20 if I can help it. Hopefully better.

Now that I've got this off my chest, my butt still hurts! Anyone have any solution for sore butts? Maybe someone would like to give me a massage.

Totally no life. I think I'll post a picture just because I know how to now!

Busy busy. Training, homework. Appeared on TV on monday though! Yvonne looked fantabulous that day, and sang so well that she melted my heart... I'm sure you can do it!

I must be smart. I must recognize the signs. I have paid too much in school fees to afford to ignore the hazard signs. A three year course and a master's degree in recognising the syndrome. So frustrating, so annonying. But I am not helpless. There must be a way.

Judgement cannot be clouded by emotion. My feelings are what my judgements are based on, not what clouds it. If it seems that way, chances are that it is true, so I should not try to be a pain in the ass. But then again, i haven't the faintest idea what should be the way.

But no matter what, I'm definitely not going to go on any sort of wild avian chase. Been there, done that. Looks like loosing faith in love!

Right. I sound so stupid. I'm not gonna say anymore.

Orientation is over. It has been a great week for me and I hope all my ooga booga members enjoyed themselves as well. I hope they feel about vj just as I did in tj. Its like the orientation I never had.

hmm, must thank my fellow OGLs Si Hui and Natasha for their kindness and putting up with me not knowing anything. Thanks for the lollipop and also for teaching me the anti-science cheer!

Friday's mass dance was a blast! After our grand final battle, where I died, we changed and went to pizza hut where our dearest juniors treated us to some delicious stuffed crust pizza! I pretended that I was actually an IP student and they actually believed me. Called me 'didi' too. No manners! Haha, I'm old la. Not so smart to be in IP.

Now that orientation is over, I guess it means that its time to focus on studying and basketball. I promise myself that everyday after school, in between trainings I shall go to the library and do my homework or study since it is impossible for me to do anything remotely resembling work at home. Yea yea yea.

Oh, and by the way, I changed my mind. You all are SCARY! No way I'm gonna have anything to do with it. I'm free!

Osmoze! Oogie Boogie!

First day of orientation today. Very very tired. Not bad though, I think our team is quite good. Not that enthusiastic but they have some sort of personality. One of them, yvonne is actually the girl who took part in Campus Superstar! Guess we are going to arrow her for all those singing things. Later she cheer too much then throat sore cannot sing properly then get kicked out! Touch wood! Don't blame us okaye? We are just trying to let everyone have some fun!