Batman and Redcliff, two great movies.

DotA, is actually a great social skill, like smoking or being able to curse in hokkien fluently.

Where is all my money going! I swear, if this keeps up I'll just have to stop eating.

Driving lesson on wednesday! Windsurfing lesson later! Nikeplus end of next month, AHM before that, and Standard Charted Marathon in December! Why why why am I doing these?

Live firing tomorrow. I can smell a screw-up a mile away and I sure ain't smelling flowers now.

There is suddenly so many things to do and to think about.

To summarize:
Next week, I have to prepare for a WITS project, a LF and some sort of presentation, and I have to conduct tomorrow.
I have to go and book my driving lesson.
I have to go and repair my Ipod.

Plus a large healthy dose of bad luck, and extreme soreness in the neck and legs area, and everything inbetween, I am feeling very very horrible.

The two biggest things, MY NECK IS VERY PAIN I DON"T KNOW WHY BUT IT HURTS WHEN I HAVE TO TURN MY HEAD ANYWHERE.

and I WENT PRAWN FISHING AND IT COST ME 418 DOLLARS.

Bad luck, bad luck, bad luck, bad luck, bad luck all around. Just for that, I'm going to go back early tonight! Hopefully that will banish all the bad luck away! Whee.

You know, there are times in your life when you just feel that longing. Times when you can't help buy feel a certain desire. When inexorably you are drawn towards that something, something that has been nagging at you at the back of your mind.

You start thinking old thoughts. Thoughts dredged up from the bottom of your consciousness. Thoughts of past desires and long-gone longings. Thoughts that feel so spontaneous, yet you know have once entered your mind and then left.

You think that maybe this time things would be different. Maybe this time, time and and space are on your side. Maybe this time providence will shine on you. Maybe this time, you would be lucky.

So you take a step in that direction. A step in a direction that looks so familiar on the compass of your thoughts. A step that you know you have taken many times before, even knowing that stupidity is doing the same things and expecting a different result. Yet almost uncontrollably, inexorably, you point and shoot.

It is then that you realize that in life, things are rarely linear. There is always a cycle, a chain of events, a toppling of dominoes that connect the past to the present, the present to the future, and the future back to the past. Everything. An oval may be an oval, a square may be a square and a triangle may be a triangle. But when you look at it closely, they're all circles. Circles with no beginning and no end, one side leading to another and in succession back to the first one. Different shapes they may be, but they are all circles.

And the above is so abstract and warped that when I look back at this post in the future, I probably won't remember at all what it signified.


Some dance to remember,
some dance to forget.
And some dance for the chance of the things that will come.

If life is a dance,
and your heart beats the rhythm,
then your soul is the maker at play.

You lift and you lie,
you flip and you fly,
and when its all over
you roll down and die.

Yes, I am THAT philosophical at 3 in the morning. the first eight words are from someone's nick, and the rest is my right brain at work.

Ok. I have got a new name for my future daughter already. I might call her May. Why? Because then her full name will be May Yeo. 'Don't have', get it? Then maybe her chinese name will be Mei Yo. So her full name will be Yeo Mei Yo!

In other news, nothing and no one is safe from big brother's prying eyes. I just witnessed something which I found personally mortifying a few days ago. It bodes well to keep in mind that any illusion of privacy and anonymity that you think you have on the web is just that. An illusion. Remember, Big Brother is Watching!

Peace can be found in the worst places. Remember this. When you do not find happiness, you are not searching hard enough. Really. The worst that can happen is that you spend so much effort looking for things to be happy about that you lower your standard for happiness. When that happens, it is inevitable that you will then be happy.

It takes courage to believe you can accomplish something. I've always wondered if having confidence that you can do something tough causes you to be able to do that something? Or could it be that you are confident because deep down inside you know that you already can do that something. Hmmm, that already sounds like confidence itself.

I cannot explain it. For example, even in JC1, when I was failing subjects left and right, I somehow never panicked. I never even wondered for once what would happen if I screwed up my 'A' levels. My dear mother always worried for me when she felt that I was not studying hard enough. Did she take it all away from me or was it misplaced to begin with? I do not know. All I know was that when I got my results during my 'A's or even 'O's I may have been happy or excited. But I was never surprised. If this sounds cocky its not meant to be.

On the flip side, there are some things that I can not feel confident about no matter how hard I try. And once again, the question arises that the cause of failure is the lack of confidence, or that one feels the lack of confidence because one know that he is very likely to fail? Don't know, Don't know, but of course I hope that the former is true. Because that would mean that the cause of failure is but a matter of the mind and by changing your perspective, you will be able to circumvent your problems.

Yes, he's here. Please please please please be good!