Is that all that is left? Acceptance and regret? That maybe I should have started earlier, fought harder and planned faster.

fml.

A sudden wave of despair seized me as I walked along the corridors on the first day of school. I was going to go over to the engineering office so that they would give me back my modules which have mysteriously disappeared. I wouldn't have needed to do that of course, if I could have just accepted the five modules they had previously allocated me. But I couldn't do that. I was at risk of losing my double degree which meant that I had to take as many engineering modules as allowed to pull up my CAP.

That's when it struck me; what if all I got out of this university was a sub-par environmental engineering degree?

I would have been sorely disappointed with myself. For some reason in the past, I chose this particular juncture. To go for a double degree in NUS. That was the beginning and end of my dream. The plan was simple: get a kick ass degree, earn a hell lot of money, and be happy. My other option was as simple: study veterinary science, the thing you've studied all your life for, and do what you love. Of course the decision didn't seem so simple then, or I can assure you that I would not be here now.

I guess I could have felt this despair anytime since I got my results and knew that I was eyeballs high in manure, but a little something I received in the mail made it a billion times worse.

Dear Lik Khian,

Congratulations!
Your application to Murdoch University has been successful! Please find the offer letter attached.

Yay me.

Its like missing an exit.